I pushed the pillows out of my eyes,
looked at you and ran to the bathroom.
Tripping over heels and glitter.
I hold my heart.
You are not the same person anymore.
Naked. and pale.
Skin is covered in pictures of
death and drugs.
” What ever happened to happiness?” i cried.
” You shouldn’t be awake when the sun is.
You are happy baby, told me last night.”
- He lies.
Or do i? in the sounds of the night.
” Why is there blood on the sheets and walls?”
” You forgot? i think we got in some trouble, baby.
come back to bed.” he slurred to me.
My head spins with disturbing visions.
Disturbing silent films with you and i as the actors.
” The bathroom is much more comforting.” i am for certain.
” You’re losing it, you don’t want to be there.
You’re legs will walk you where you need to be.
come to bed.”
I walk.
The red contrast against the white cotton
cuts me to the bone.
Shakes me down to my nerve endings.
The air is heavy over this bed,
and under this bed is were she lays.
” Trouble?”
” Yes baby. Black dahlia trouble.
We killed her.
The girl with no eyes.
Drained her blood into the river,
and laid her body on our mother’s yard.
You told me she haunted you,
for she was in love with me.
We did it baby,
we wrote our names on it.”
.
what a way to open your eyes. to a room filled with evidence the authorizes need to help that mother sleep. i killed a girl. i killed her with him. for no reason, i never knew her. But the way she batted those lashes and held her drink loose, i knew she would have killed me. the only pride and joy i have is him. any animal in this jungle would confuse him into thinking they taste better. i had my guard up and around him and i. she broke it. i had to kill her. we as people are only animals. animals with instincts. i acted on those and she did hers.
i chased her though the desert and sandy plains. she ran faster then me, but i knew the land. i see better at night through my hands and nose. her drink made her vision double and fear triple. i am a wolf and she only appeared to be a fawn. a stupid, stupid fawn. i can tell she was scared when he banged her on the head. gloss eyes shined in the moon light and reflected our smiles. we dragged her in the alley with our teeth and did only what the moon knows. he won’t tell anyone. he wanted her dead just like us wolves did.
she had to die. her words and laughs made the grass black. the roses burnt, the water dry. poison and flames followed her every step and told her to do the darkest things. she was trying to take my baby. but my baby isn’t innocent anymore. she corrupted us. even after she laid dieing, she won. she’ll always win. and ill spend the rest of my life and his, draining the blood out of her body. chasing her down and killing her heart. black hearts shouldn’t be alive. but they hide so well. they poisons the world of which i love. and cast spells on humans i own. that is why i kill. that is why she’s dead.
